Tangles of Romance

The truth is love is confusing. I never know what it really looks like for me. I wait to see his face all of the time and it always surprises me how much I take his smile for granted in the distance we spend apart. Its remarkable that even when I know I am about to turn to look into his eyes, I still, every time am blown away. Shocked by my own lack of remembrance, or maybe reminded, but I think that it's really me feeling myself fall in love with him time after time. I know that I am still young, so it might seem strange to say that he makes me feel like a kid, but he does.
  I won't lie, things with Dalton have been so hard. We have been struggling so much to find the right place with one another. I think that it has made us stronger. I just want him to unleash the inner Dalton that I know exists. The Dalton that stops second guessing how dependable I am. I won't be the pointer here though, I feel the same way about him. I wonder all the time if he could be the one, and we're not even dating, its hysterical. What's next? We'll have kids, get married and then fall out of love? Nothing seems right, love isn't at all like what Disney told me it would be. Love is really complex and complicated. There is no one answer to the many complexities of love. It flows like a fucking river at time, and others it stops in the middle of everything and the water dries up and you find yourself forgetting that there is no fun in the waterfall jump without the churning of the water.
  Sometimes I wonder how I will ever be able to sit across from two people who have fallen out of love and remind them of all of the reasons why they fell in love. How could I do that when I haven't found the real love myself?
  My trust has been ruined with the last person I was with, and yet when I am before Dalton, there is no worry in the world, I trust him with every fiber in my body... I feel a connection with him that I have felt with no other. This might be the Disney shit.